What is Éclat?
Éclat means sparkle in French.
I became enamored with the “idea” of #Paris at twelve years old. I studied #French throughout high school and college, and from my very first bite of croissant – well, it was #love. The #artists. The #glamour. The #culture. The “je ne sais quois” of it all.
So when in college, I was able to finally travel to Paris, imagine my surprise to find out that Paris would also be the location of my very first #panicattack. Paris would go on to represent the birthplace of my fear; more importantly, Paris represented the ways that I allowed fear to hold me hostage in life for more years than I care to admit.
Personally and professionally, 2015 has been the year of “Phoenix Rising” for me. I started it off neck deep in the ashes of the closure of my last business, a never ending fertility struggle, annnnddd let me just tell you, failure is a REAL bitch. It is the scariest of “the fears” and the one I have found to be the most paralyzing and shame inducing. If you have not read @BreneBrown’s teachings on #Shame and #RisingStrong….Go Google it. Hashtag. #Now. Srsly.
Shame can dull your #sparkle and rob you of your ability to find your #creativity in ways I could have never imagined. There are a lot of #haters in this life that will try to convince you that you are not enough. They will attempt to tear you down and keep you small because they don’t believe they are enough either. Trust me, I’ve been an easy target for that most my life – which is why I’ve let them in my head way more than I should.
But one day in the mist of all the pride swallowing self-loathing, I was watching a television show and they were asking a question, “if you could gift your children with one wish in life what would in be in three words or less?” And in that moment it hit me.
I made a decision to do like #Elsa and #LetThatShitGo. I was tired of being afraid. And with that simple decision (and the support of some very special friends – you know who you are) I set off on a journey to face my biggest #fears – the top of this list being to fly abroad alone and travel back to Paris 10 years after that first panic attack, to stand in front of the #EifelTower – with nothing but me, inside of my own skin, and to find a way to believe for one and for all that #IamEnough.
And since that moment it has been a slowly evolving exercise in finding the #courage to pick myself up and put myself out there again. I’ve been taking tiny baby steps forward towards believing in myself again; softly shushing the self doubt and reassuring myself that my #creativity and my #sparkle has value. That it is safe to share. That I can stand back up and start again.
That I can SPARKLE.
“Don’t let someone dim your light, simply because it’s shining in their eyes.”
“I want to be brave with my life. And when we make the choice to dare greatly, we sign up to get our asses kicked. We can choose courage or we can choose comfort, but we can’t have both. Not at the same time. Vulnerability is not winning or losing; it’s having the courage to show up and be seen when we have no control over the outcome. Vulnerability is not weakness; it’s our greatest measure of courage.”
Be Free Friends!
This is Eclat.
#PheonixRising #RisingStrong #SparkleOn✨