Part Four: The Atom Bomb On Marriage That Is Kids

I am just going to say it having babies is an absolute assault onto marriage. Being that I am a psychological information junkie, I already knew that the drop in happiness quotient from when a couple is pregnant with their first child to when the baby is less than two years old is the largest…

Part Three: Not Everyone Will Get It

As I have admitted before, I was truly the worst kind of judgmental mom before I had babies. I don’t think you can truly understand the toll sleep denervation, recovering from a c section, and managing someone’s entire life takes on your personal self until you have a baby for the first time. In that…

Part Two: When Your Life Becomes Bigger Than You

The most difficult part of raising twins for me has unequivocally been the transition to needing help almost every single minute of every single day, and learning how to ask, find, receive and manage the help I need. I am sure there are moms (twin moms too) out there that do it all on their…

Part One: Your Control Freak Emerges

It’s amazing how many times you can put your foot in your mouth in the matter of one year. I can admit now that I was a pretty big a**hole when it came to how I judged other mothers for so many years. You see, I was an adoptive parent (and shortly thereafter a part-time…

A Place Of Belonging

“Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy—the experiences that make us the most vulnerable. Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will…

A Window of Opportunity

I have swallowed the pill that my choosing to stay home for the time being may mean I never get to achieve the career success or freedom that I have taken so many shots at for so many years. I am going to continue to work towards being okay with that. With that said, if we are ever to truly have women’s equality, in its true definition, than I hope that changes and we can learn to accommodate the ways in which we are not the same; not men and women, and not before and after having a family. I also hope that we build resources to support women both in their choice to lean in, but also in their choice to step back, or step down, or step off completely for a period of time without it impacting their entire career paths or looked down upon as some kind of knock against feminism and women’s equality.

The Birth of a Brother

I wrote this a month ago in the throws of trying to figure out how to navigate going from a mother of one to a mother of three… “It’s not an easy task, being asked to go from being the baby of the family to the big brother who has to give away so much…

A Birdie and A Rose Garden

It is almost unfathomable that it has been twelve weeks since my angels made their debut earth side. Its been two months since I last posted and so much has transpired in that short period of time I hardly know where to begin. Well for starters, the girls have gone from these tiny little beans…

Twins First Month

Tomorrow these angels will be one month old, and when everyone says that the minute they are born it will be as if they had always existed, that has most certainly been true for our family. Madeleina and Aveline are such incredible babies and mothering them has been heavenly. The only way I can properly…

Love Will Come To You

The wintery morning you were born, I woke up crying. I was exhausted and sore from the pain of carrying my enormous belly (your home) around and fighting with my bed and my bladder for the tiniest morsels of sleep for what had felt like an eternity. The pure weight of your two bodies and…

When Loving Means Leaving

Because mental illness is so taboo, because I’ve always been in such awe of those who share their truths, because I know so many people suffer from the stigma of mental illness in silence, because it’s taken me 35 years to have the courage to talk about my mothers struggle, because a book I read…

The Bump Life

There is something about creating and carrying two humans at the same time that is quite spectacular…meaning that you will feel like your body has become a bit of a spectacle every place you go. One of my biggest curiosities in twin pregnancy was the bump and just how big I was going to be….